WASTED TIMES

THE TIME THAT I WASTED IS MY BIGGEST REGRET,
 SPENT IN THOSE PLACES I WILL NEVER FORGET.
JUST SITTING AND THINKING ABOUT THE THINGS I'VE DONE,
THE CRYING, THE LAUGHING, THE HURT AND THE FUN.
NOW IT'S JUST ME AND MY HARD DRIVEN GUILT,
BEHIND A WALL OF EMPTINESS I ALLOWED TO BE BUILT.
I'M TRAPPED IN MY BODY JUST WANTING TO RUN,
BACK TO MY PAST WITH IT'S LAUGHTER AND FUN.
BUT THE CHASE IS OVER AND THERE'S NO PLACE TO HIDE,
EVERYTHING IS GONE INCLUDING MY PRIDE.
AS I LOOK AT MY PAST IT'S SO EASY TO SEE,
THE FEAR THAT I HAD BEEN AFRAID TO BE ME.
LIVING FOR THE DRUGS AND THE WINGS I HAD GROWN,
MY FEELINGS WERE LOST AFRAID TO BE SHOWN.
I PRETENDED TO BE STRONG, SO FAST AND SO COOL,
WHEN ACTUALLY I WAS LOST LIKE A BLINDED OLD FOOL.
NOW MEMORIES OF THE PAST FLASH THROUGH MY HEAD,
AND THE PAIN IS SO OBVIOUS BY THE TEARS THAT I SHED.
I'M GETTING TOO OLD FOR THIS TIRESOME GAME,
OF ACTING REAL HARD WITH NO SENSE OF SHAME.
IT'S TIME TO CHANGE AND GET A NEW START,
WHAT MY FUTURE WILL HOLD I REALLY DON'T KNOW.
BUT THE YEARS THAT I'VE WASTED ARE STARTING TO SHOW.
I STILL LIVE FOR THE DAY I GET A NEW START,
AND THE DREAMS I HAVE I HOLD WAY DEEP IN THE HEART.
I KNOW I CAN MAKE IT, I AT LEAST HAVE TO TRY,
BECAUSE I'M HEADING TOWARDS DEATH,
AND I'M NOT AFRAID TO DIE.